well,tis is my first time writing tis to my dear wife laopo. Wadever i say is from my bottom of my heart. steph,i love her alot alot and i hope we can be together for life.hmmm,i can say that she has very little confidence of herself.my dear,u must keep it up and jus do your best k,i will be behind you always.jus want to let you know that wadever u do must be happy k,i wun wan u to be sad sad de.it makes my heart feel painful seeing u sad.you must stay happi always k and i want to tell you that my love for you will not change and you are the one and only gal i love most and deeply,my dear dear always... good luck in wadever you do k.
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{/1/30/2005 01:58:00 AM}
♥ Friday, January 14, 2005
i dnt neo wat i wan..i dnt neo wat im doing,i dnt neo how im feeling,i dnt neo how strong im,i dnt neo how sad/happi i m,i dnt neo...alot of dnt neo...i jus a useless fellow,i dnt neo wat my brains are 4,i dnt neo wat my feelings r 4, i dnt neo wat im doin on earth, i dnt neo wat im studyin 4, i dnt neo y im so lousy in everythin....i envy all who can score w.o hvin to worry...i dnt neo y im slow in understanding lect, i dnt neo y im weak in studies, i dnt neo y ppl r 'lookin-dwn' on me and despise me, i dnt neo y i deserved all this,i dnt neo y im stupid, i dnt neo y i neo nth..., i dnt neo y i cant make decisions, i dnt neo y i cant be wat i wan to be, i dnt neo............haiz.......ther's is stilll a list to go but then ther is no pt gg on n on coz ther is no end 4 my dnt neo(S)...........
to all my projects mates...my apologies to every1 of u all...i neo im nt a strong 1,as in regards to project.....i wil help but then i neo wat i found is lyk might nt be of use, and i might actuali nt of ani help thru out the whole project....i shld nt deserve the marks of wat u all r gettin.....i dnt neo y im jus a lousy 1....nt gd in anythin..the facts states so....i cant think of anythin or wat to prove im at least gd in sumthin.....i dnt blame it on my stupidness but jus to seek all of u all to understand...im sorri!
i hate being look dwn at but no wae can i sae anythin coz its a fact ttz wat coz them to be thingy tt wae....no 1 lyks to be look dwn at............i jus feel lousy now..ttz explainz my -ve thotz...bk to french ppt...ciaoz.....i miss dear alot!!!onli his hug can make me feel the best of everythin n an wei.......i love u!
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{/1/14/2005 06:18:00 PM}
♥ Friday, January 07, 2005
heyz peeps!hehe...im bk here...actuali dnt reali wan to cum in here de but reali nth to do...bored...so cum in the kill time...hahah....yeapz.....neo wat?i finali cut my hair todae after sayin times n again tt i wana cut it...so hapi coz im so satisfy with the results..thx yanti 4 recommendin me uh...heheh.....u oso meimei liao lo!heheh....but honestly uh..its very tiring to sit in the salon 4 so so long...almost 2hrs i think...so sleepy...hahah...wel after tt stayed on in far east since its aready almost 0530 by the time we left the salon...so shop ard...gosh!!!!!!made a wrong choice...saw n top n jacket which attracts both me n yanti...but wel,at least yanti bought the jacket.....im dying!i wan $!!!can it drop from the sky?hahaha...dream on!
wel...this aready the end of this week lo....a few more weeks to common test n CNY!dnt neo watz the fashion now to wear manz...dnt even neo wat to wear...bored!sianz....mus shop 4 a purpose...yeapz..anywae this week is a ok week ba but alot had happened...hehe....yeapz...but mus buck up alot on my studies...scared cant make it 4 MA...super tough...the rest aint any beta.....stressed!
im starting to learn alot more of human nature le....ppl tryin to be so fake to u,tryin to be kelian stuff.....nt in the least remourseful of wat had been done n yet tryin to gain symphathy?i dnt neo..but pls neo ur limits...every1 have their patience limit..so do i....dnt make me do wat i dnt wana do..i can be real nasty to u if u wan me to be....im nice to let things go n act blur but there u r tryin to get onto my nerves once again.....mad!so dnt ever blame me.....i dnt need u to keep ur own pride n stuff lyk u sae til u r in a very wei qu situation....pls la uh....but wel,im rather hapi with how things is gg.....im nt afraid oof u!aniwae i had been super nasty yrs ago..n been long since i chong chu jiang hu le...i dnt mind being once again the nastiest!so stop stucking(nt sure if its spelled this wae) up to ppl out there n make them think i m the bad guy....no 1 wil turn bk on u if u hadnt do anythin worng.irriatating....n otherS?!.........so stop wining!n to ppl out there......dnt expect ppl to go in ur wae jus coz u can do it.....u can doesnt means others have to have the 'i can do it' style as u...u gt no right to sae anythin or do anything if u urself arent doin the correct wae!jus shut up n leave out of my sight asap......!dnt need u lo....can survive i believe...if i hv the will to carry on!f*** off!
once again its sat...tml gg shoppin with mum coz she off n she booked me to bring her go shoppin 4 CNY clothes n oso coz my sis wrkin this sat ttz y cant join u guys 4 discussion....SORRY guys!yea...hope to buy something tml but it al depends on my mama...ehhehe....but hope she wil get her clothes tml then at least wont be a wasted trip to town....tml my half of the dae wil be with mama...the endin of tml is wif dearie......he is wrkin VERY hard......it hurts me but there is nth i can do.....useless me..onli neo how to spend his $!!!but then again dear this few daes temper very bad...even in times of talkin to me,made me feel so pekchek n dnt wan tok to him...tok abit of stuff n parts which i dnt get wat he sayin....he pekchek le..is lyk im the cause of everythin lo...but wel..i neo he dnt mean it...he is reali tired n stressed..he wil be jobless soon......but dear..i wil stand by u!i promise....i love u!muackz!
gota learn my french over the weekends le...havin a test on mon..both written n oral...hope can lyk pass?hahah.....nt reali gt much of confident lehz.....die le lo....haha...
Have a happi weekend every1!!!!miss n love ya..my royal family,the see family(esp my mummy!),my alien,maine,my freshies TA25,my everything,every1 impt in my life!!!
My dearest laogong,"I love you with all of my heart, body ,and soul. You complete me. You make my life worth living. To have known you and to have loved you has been the most beautiful dream. I can only hope that I never wake up and I love you not because I need you, But I need you because I love you.""wo ai ni,bao bei!"*
